Self Delusion Is a Tricky Little Bastard

 

We have to be free of poisonous anger or else we cannot live and yet "Bondage of self" guarantees a continuing slavish existence.  Freedom from self-will is the answer.  But how?

Self does not like its handiwork to be exposed. It wants to exist under the radar of consciousness while supplying us with “self” delusion. 

Being an alien identity, a parasite  – the “not me” masquerading as “me” (even mimicking am imposter voice of Reason inside) - is a lying, deceiver living off the morass of hate it helps to evolve. Once we return to our true state of ‘being’ through detaching from that false ‘self’ we can then stand back and watch it – we are able to see this lying ‘thing’ for what it is.  It can be a frightening vision.

Until we own up to this horrible reality we will always remain attached and unaware of the manipulation that the world, its people and circumstance around us exert upon us.

Through the stress of the world, dark forces seeks to control us and when we respond we become immediate and inexorably linked to evil through our stressors” an unforgiving spirit in us can only do the same back to them – through our own wrong responses. 

It never fails.

We can never respond in any way other than wrongly, with impatience, and hostility until this slavish existence – this “bondage of self” is how the co-authors referred to this phenomenon – is severed. 

Those recovered men and woman were really onto something in their day. 

 Had more of them stuck with what was revealed they might had come to better ends than they did – even so what a gift to receive this snapshot of their transformed lives upon their initial awakening as the result of these steps. My experience also includes being freed from self-delusion (“bondage of self” – same thing).

It is very possible to stand back of this nightmare; to be from free of self-delusion. 

It is possible because there is a way to separate from that lying, alien identity ('self', 'ego' call it what you will). When we practice it, it is the meditation exercise above - we become immediately free from the self – even lying delusion self tells us when it says there can be no freedom from lying delusions. That’s that too is a lie. (This is where the “cunning” in alcoholism comes from; as it combines with “baffling and powerful”.)   

Tricky little bastard that “thing’ called ‘ego’ is.

When self isn't fed it shrinks and it grows weak within us. The Sunlight of the Spirit shines on it and it dries it up like scat in a field. Letting that Sunlight in to illuminate and reveal its deceptions is all we ever need and 'bondage to self' is a thing of the past. 

It is true that if we were to live, we have to be free of anger.  But freedom is not something that we can willfully install ourselves. It must be 'gifted; by a loving God.

There is no such thing as anger management.  

Management of anger is an insidious lie.  

It is another one of the many fee based solutions that so many us fall for; really a non-solution; a trick’ that panders to a ubiquitous human problem for which no man can provide any true solution. Only God can. 

There is a solution. It just isn't going to be bought, studied or 'counseled'. The real solution to anger (and all of the flavors of ‘resentment’)  evades all attempt to humanly fix. When we are thrown clear during a fearless and though Step Four inventory – then we remain free through ardently practicing Step Eleven meditation. 

The simple, ancient practice of separating from the ego 'thing' inside brings us to a place where we are unceasingly aware of all you have just read in this article. That place is arrived at within the realm of  inner God consciousness – not ‘self’ consciousness that many of us foolishly seek when we still secretly consider ourselves to be Him.

Peace and Love,

Danny S – RLRA

Real Live Recovered Alcoholic

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