Who's God?

Is it YOU?

Step Eleven calls for prayer and meditation to "improve our conscious contact with God". There is nothing the in the book "Alcoholics Anonymous" to suggest that all prayer and all meditations we happen to stumble upon is going to accomplish that.

I can tell you from harrowing experiences garnered over the last thirty years that there are some kinds of prayer and some meditations that can and do actually diminish and even destroy our conscious contact with God.

Much of it is 180 degrees opposite of the principles discussed in the Big Book. It is naive to believe that every kook coming down the pike with a crystal, a chant and spacey grin -- and New York Times "best seller" automatically has something we need. Such childish gullibility can kill us.

The original separation from God came as a thought. It said, “You are god” which separated us from the true God. It happened to YOU when you were a little child with the first resentment you ever allowed inside.

Once we eliminate all anti-social dopaminigenic abuses - like alcoholic drinking and drugging - we can come back to the originating prideful thought that caused us to fall. But if we fail to neutralize that prideful thought we never reunite with Him and remain at odds with God - forever trapped in an endless recycling of ego enhancing thought. We live a judges in a sensual world designed to accommodate our fallen nature. It eventually causes us great physical harms -- even death.

Until we awaken and learn to separate from the thought that caused our downfall instead of aligning with the lying thought that tells us that we are God - we can never align with Gods' vision for what He would have us be. We are always then locked into MY will - not "thy will"

Some forms of "meditation" purport to bring about about enlightenment - yet they instead of telling us the truth - that we are NOT GOD, these encourage us to “Be still and know that ‘YE are God’”. Ouch! How did that slip into to something we thought was so profound and held such mystic appeal?

These meditation techniques, while appealing to the prideful ego , eventually will kill us. We do get "still". Yes, and on the surface it appears that such enlightenment and stillness is of great benefit. The allure of seeing others derive such benefit is tempting - but those benefits prove to be only an alternative to other anti-social escapes and undesirable consequences from which we thought we had been saved. Ultimately these 'meditations' lock us into separation away from God as we think that we "ARE" God.

It is the ultimate cruelty.

It is as though the spiritual rug is pulled out from under those who otherwise had been searching in earnest for truth.

What we had really been searching for is the the 'truth' that we are God - which is a lie. Alzheimer's Disease, heart dysfunction and some forms of cancers are not uncommon among practitioners of these forms of meditations and among those who embrace pantheistic lifestyles and philosophies.

The recurrence of unmanageably marked by mounting sensitivities to resentment and foolish decision making - is practically guaranteed. In order to keep up we must re-tool our spirituality with newer more sophisticated "human aided" processes e.g. amplified personal inventories and reincarnations of the Twelve Steps in the Big Book. It is due to the ever increasing internal need for them that is actually cultivated through improper (pantheistic) "We are God" brands of meditation.

The Twelve stepper believes he is getting 'better' through intensification of "12 step" procedure but in reality he is simply a hapless respondent to the mounting pressures of a 'secret struggle' that no one sees; continuing to play God on the inside - while maintaining a facade of humility on the outside. Eventually ramped up inventories and involvements with gurus or religious orders lose their ability to keep up - just as the original "program" did.

As the Big Book says, "First of all, we had to quit playing God. It didn't work."

The then of course it makes sense that being still so that we can realize that He is God does work.

Peace and Love,

Danny S - RLRA
Real Live Recovered Alcoholic

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Meditation Role In Amends

We abuse our amends making work when instead of seeking to right wrong, we selfishly seek to forgive others - because it means that we are still playing God- yearning to feel the ‘pleasure’ of issuing "forgiveness" to those we have previously ‘condemned’.

Yearning now to “re-judge’ others as 'good' – just as surely as we had judged them ‘bad’ in the past, we only find temporary emotional elation. It overrides the internal strife with which we still suffer for not having truly 'repented' (Please overlook the religious parlance. It is perfect here) It is an ego stimulant. Either way we are STILL being D' Judge. This is still playing God. Nothing has changed other than the 'polarity of our judgment.' This IS what BIPOLAR disorder is really ALL ABOUT!!

It is still being judgmental. If you like Biblical references, some folks do; The original sin in the garden was not indulging in the knowledge of Evil alone. It was indulging in the knowledge of both good and evil. Playing God through such judgment. (God alone is judge. Not we humans)

By making amends from a still-selfishly motivated platform of existence we think that by now playing the role of the benevolent God - whereas previously we had acted as the condemning malevolent God that this time since we are bestowing love and goodness upon our subjects we will ourselves be forgiven. We now feel better about it? WRONG! It is still playing God and separation from Him for having played Him will still be internally manifested. The obsession-addiction cycle is not broken - not even dented. In fact I have seen it straighten in some cases. We can never find permanent relief this way. It is anti-spirituality.

Amends made prior to true repentance never works and that kind of repentance never works unless we are shown the (mis)deed that caused it, either through writing (4^th step inventory) or via awareness (meditation).

Peace and Love,

Danny S - RLRA
Real Live Recovered Alcoholic
http://recoveredalcoholic.blogspot.com

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Meditate No Matter What

What the hell is going on?

As you continue to realize that you are not God, the idea that It is not God disturbs the resident ego identity. Enough so that there sometimes can be physical manifestations. 

These often express as a movement, sometimes originating in the lower pit of the belly (In women this can even be lower), the torso, a pressure in the chest and in some cases - eventually up through the throat. Not to make light of this in the least, but this can feel like you may imagine a cat feels when they cough up a fur-ball.

There can sometimes even be a choking sensation. When that happens it indicates a purging, a cathartic release of energy the ego has been stored up for its own purposes.  (Sometimes when this happens to a person as we are talking over the phone, and there is an inability to speak. This is only temporary and there is no actual physical damage done to the voice.)

This release may be more or less violent, depending upon varying factors, which are usually of such a personal order than they should only be addressed on a personal level. Do not give up meditation at this stage. It would be very unwise to do so.

The state of conscious awareness as the result of practicing this meditation properly will also render you protected and in a position of objective safety. You will soon be free. Patience.

Peace and  Love,

Danny S – RLRA

Real Live Recovered Alcoholic

http://stepelevencomesalive.blogspot.com/

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