What Do You Expect?

There is no such thing as total faithlessness. We also have faith in a great power, although too often that power is us – at least in our mind it is.

Having "Faith in myself" or "I believe in me" are two ways of putting it. These misguided sentiments and similar 'affirmations' are the beginning of our downward spiral away from the grace with which we were born. It is not true faithlessness because we do have a faith, except the faith we have is faith in ourselves instead of faith in God. This translates into doubting God.

The foundation for all agnosticism begins with playing God; when the self feels as though it is becoming God. God-play is ego-self toying with power and judgment.

The ego-self finds results oriented thought most appealing. We may be able to psyche ourselves up, energizing our actions in a direction that we see as a positive course. 

Yet whatever motivators we use to compel us all will tend to have only a fleeting effect. The  results never lasts long enough to break us free from the slavish need to self-motivate and we only maintain security by cultivating and growing even more egocentric power to keep this momentum.

Expectational thinking; the willful projection of self-centered outcomes – is synonymous with doubt. It fixates us to emotional concerns about outcomes. it is at the base of all our fears, bar none.

Fear is resenting not getting our way in the future. It is a function of the ego's overactive imagination. Visualization of positive outcomes instead of trusting God is nothing more than a faithless indulgence. 

 It addicts us to projecting  outcomes and when our expectations are unfulfilled, as some will inevitably be, we feel disappointment. We resent God for having failed us. It is hating God.

Expectational thinking is the exact opposite of faith. It is a certain symptom of faithlessness in God. It will always create fear, anxiety, and depression. It can even lead to suicidal thoughts.

Seeking outcomes, trying to influence events, is the evidence of a still willful alcoholic who has not yet broken out of the lifelong ‘habit’ of playing God. 

Achievements, ambition and outcome based activities and thoughts, including mental and physical attainment though meditation only pushes us deeper into the soothing miasma that prevents clarity and serenity.

By “attainment through meditation” I mean to say that even the seemingly noble act of meditation can be turned into a willful act when we seek it for selfish ends. Therefore, ambitious pursuit of anything – even with regard to the meditation I teach (Found at the top of this page) - is to be avoided. 

Have an opened mind. I am asking you to set aside your prejudice regarding meditation so that agnostic self will yield, allowing the Creators will in. If you do you will be very glad that you did.

Peace and  Love,

Danny S – RLRA

Real Live Recovered Alcoholic

http://recoveredalcoholic.blogspot.com

Expectations, Faith, Fear