Who's God?

Is it YOU?

Step Eleven calls for prayer and meditation to "improve our conscious contact with God". There is nothing the in the book "Alcoholics Anonymous" to suggest that all prayer and all meditations we happen to stumble upon is going to accomplish that.

I can tell you from harrowing experiences garnered over the last thirty years that there are some kinds of prayer and some meditations that can and do actually diminish and even destroy our conscious contact with God.

Much of it is 180 degrees opposite of the principles discussed in the Big Book. It is naive to believe that every kook coming down the pike with a crystal, a chant and spacey grin -- and New York Times "best seller" automatically has something we need. Such childish gullibility can kill us.

The original separation from God came as a thought. It said, “You are god” which separated us from the true God. It happened to YOU when you were a little child with the first resentment you ever allowed inside.

Once we eliminate all anti-social dopaminigenic abuses - like alcoholic drinking and drugging - we can come back to the originating prideful thought that caused us to fall. But if we fail to neutralize that prideful thought we never reunite with Him and remain at odds with God - forever trapped in an endless recycling of ego enhancing thought. We live a judges in a sensual world designed to accommodate our fallen nature. It eventually causes us great physical harms -- even death.

Until we awaken and learn to separate from the thought that caused our downfall instead of aligning with the lying thought that tells us that we are God - we can never align with Gods' vision for what He would have us be. We are always then locked into MY will - not "thy will"

Some forms of "meditation" purport to bring about about enlightenment - yet they instead of telling us the truth - that we are NOT GOD, these encourage us to “Be still and know that ‘YE are God’”. Ouch! How did that slip into to something we thought was so profound and held such mystic appeal?

These meditation techniques, while appealing to the prideful ego , eventually will kill us. We do get "still". Yes, and on the surface it appears that such enlightenment and stillness is of great benefit. The allure of seeing others derive such benefit is tempting - but those benefits prove to be only an alternative to other anti-social escapes and undesirable consequences from which we thought we had been saved. Ultimately these 'meditations' lock us into separation away from God as we think that we "ARE" God.

It is the ultimate cruelty.

It is as though the spiritual rug is pulled out from under those who otherwise had been searching in earnest for truth.

What we had really been searching for is the the 'truth' that we are God - which is a lie. Alzheimer's Disease, heart dysfunction and some forms of cancers are not uncommon among practitioners of these forms of meditations and among those who embrace pantheistic lifestyles and philosophies.

The recurrence of unmanageably marked by mounting sensitivities to resentment and foolish decision making - is practically guaranteed. In order to keep up we must re-tool our spirituality with newer more sophisticated "human aided" processes e.g. amplified personal inventories and reincarnations of the Twelve Steps in the Big Book. It is due to the ever increasing internal need for them that is actually cultivated through improper (pantheistic) "We are God" brands of meditation.

The Twelve stepper believes he is getting 'better' through intensification of "12 step" procedure but in reality he is simply a hapless respondent to the mounting pressures of a 'secret struggle' that no one sees; continuing to play God on the inside - while maintaining a facade of humility on the outside. Eventually ramped up inventories and involvements with gurus or religious orders lose their ability to keep up - just as the original "program" did.

As the Big Book says, "First of all, we had to quit playing God. It didn't work."

The then of course it makes sense that being still so that we can realize that He is God does work.

Peace and Love,

Danny S - RLRA
Real Live Recovered Alcoholic