Playing God

It's Hard Work

Ego is a hard master . Quite the slave driver, in fact.

In order to preserve its emboldened egocentric existence and maintain the role of “god” – judging the people and conditions it sees in the world – the Ego-self has the un-recovered alcoholic working very hard.

Since the circumstance around him - as evidenced by people’s reactions to his increasingly miscreant behaviors - are constantly reminding him of his true, diminutive place in the world, he must stay ahead of the game by constantly reordering himself, his thinking and his environment in a way that continually resets the stage for the performances of his (really the ego's) life.

It is a restless existence as the alcoholic struggles, jumping through hoops, expending his energies trying to manufacture his own “self’-esteem” fitting an imagined picture of himself; one he reserves in his fantasies.

No wonder he is so tired and worn out much of the time. Even dry, sober alcoholics, yet a prey top their emotions, must "pass out" deeply into the recesses of their thinking by the end of the day. The patience for a "nightly review" of the days spiritual failings and successes is hard to find.

All alcoholics become a slave to the prideful, false-self lurking inside and he often acts without much regard for his fellows or awareness of what he is doing - wondering why he cannot ever seem to acquire and hold onto the “white picket fence” of his dreams.

The answer is for him to get out of his dreams, thereby escaping the grasp that his lower nature, his own ego-self, has on him. The Twelve Steps is a great place to make a beginning. Custom made for alcoholics by alcoholics - it is the longest running, most successful modern day recovery program around, providing a path to the spiritual awakening necessary before anyone can experience enduring sobriety and growth.

Peace & Love,

Danny S – RLRA

Real Live Recovered Alcoholic

http://recoveredalcoholic.blogspot.com

Judgement, Playing God